Well apparently its ok for guys to cry...No seriously

I've always been moved by music. I mean I didnt start singing for real until I was in 8th grade with my 2 friends, but I always had an appreciation for it. When I got into high school music helped take me out of a kind of dark place I was in under the pressure of social/educational life. I joined choir/madrigals/barbershop, anything I could get my hands on. Then I discovered musical theater and solo stage performance and I realized how much emotion and music were linked. I used to fall asleep to songs of interest on repeat, picturing myself singing them on stage.

I performed in the ensemble of one show Junior year of high school and as the lead in my senior musical. After that.....it was time for business as usual via 5 years of architecture school. Like I've said in previous blogs I caught that fire once again when I competed in the Talent Competition.

Ive been in NY this week for a few days looking for wait staff jobs to make the rent and my roommate convinced me to do something a little irregular for me. She convinced me to wake up at 4am....after walking around the city all day and wait in line with the hardcore musical theater kids for the cheap 25 dollar tickets for Next To Normal. So we got there around 6am....and waited for the ticket counter to open up and give those tickets to the first 26 ppl in line....at 10am. We were numbers 19-21. After that I walked ...miles around the city applying for jobs wondering if that was even worth it.

I went to the show at 7.

I have to admit I was kind of dismissive at first. "This isn't rent" "This isn't Wicked" "Wheres the huge cast" Then the emotion emerged. After "You Dont Know" ended I knew I was in for something special. I got more and more engaged and then...it happened. Yeah I cried (although I'm pretty sure I simultaneously got two pieces of dirt in both of my eyes), but I looked around and so was the rest of the theater. I wasn't crying because I'm that kind of person, I'm definitely not. But I was so involved, so...enthusiastic about what these people were doing that I (and everyone else) gave the amazing cast a standing ovation. I rushed downstairs to buy the soundtrack and tonight I will be doing what I did 5 years ago, falling asleep to a dream.